Not so horrible after all...

Well, for those of you who didn’t know, I had dengue…. AGAIN!!! Been trying to blog on this but internet connection has been super crappy these few days. Hehe… anyway, this is what happened:

Thurs 12/6

PM

Was feeling really tired. Eyes were really dry while watching tv.

Suddenly realized one side of my right eye was red! Took our contacts and went to bed

Fri 13/6

AM

Woke up feeling really horrible with back aches and headache.

Forced myself to go for Masterclass. It was a violin masterclass. Boring.

Everyone was sleeping. But I couldn’t coz my back hurt too much

By the end of the class I was feverish and really uncomfortable.

Took a train home and went to bed.

PM

Started to feel worse so dad said he’ll take me to see Dr. Tan after dinner.

Dr. Tan said it was a viral infection but asked me to come back to him if situation persists till Monday.

He was afraid it would be dengue

Sat 14/6

Felt better. No more aches and fever.

Just felt hot the whole day.

So, kept myself in aircond rooms the whole day

Stopped taking my meds

Sun 15/6

Went to church.

Hmmm, I forgot what I felt that day.

I think tummy wasn’t too good.

But overall I was fine

Mon 16/6

Dad sent me back to Cheras. Started to feel horrible again

Fever returned. Resumed my medication

Slept through the whole day. Skipped all classes

Tues 17/6

AM

Fever subsided.

Felt extremely hot the whole day. Kept sweating uncontrollably.

Decided to go home to Seremban with dad after his meeting

I had to go for Chamber Music Ensemble coaching in school in the afternoon.

Forced myself out of bed and went to school

Was feeling really bad by the time I reached there

On the way back to the condo, felt dizzy and nauseas

PM

Went home to Seremban

Couldn’t see Dr. Tan coz he was on leave

Wed 18/6

AM

Went to Dr. Tan’s at 10.

He asked me to go take a blood test from the Pathlab in town

Kor sent me there. Took the blood test and headed home

On the way home, dad called and said that Dr. Tan says I needed to be admitted….. DENGUE!!!

My blood count was 70 000. A normal person’s is 150 000

At first I didn’t feel anything. Just went home, told mom and started to pack

While packing, it just hit me… and I started to cry! Hahaha…

After lunch, dad sent me to the hospital. They had to put me on drip.

They poked a needle on my left hand. Blood came out!

Then the nurse said, “oh tak boleh lah. Tukar tangan” (oh, cannot. Change hands)

And it was like super duper painful when she took the needle out!!!

Now it’s blue-black! See:

Brought me to the ward. 6B. It was PACKED!!!

So they just dumped me in the middle of the walkway at the end of the ward.

I didn’t even have a proper bed. It was those beds that they use to transfer a person from one place to the other! Hahha…

Dad and kor came to bring me dinner and I asked kor to take a pic of me being sesat. But he didn’t really take it at a good angle where u can see me being sesat lar…

But anyways, u can see me behind me is the exit door. So yea…

PM

They finally gave me my own bed! Hehe… was still crowded.

But at least I had my bed! =)

Wasn’t used to the drip. Felt really uncomfortable.

Tried to read my Bible but couldn’t coz the drip would stop or it would start bleeding

Couldn’t sleep that night

It was too hot, too uncomfortable, too noisy

Josh was there to talk to me. Forced me to try to sleep

Finally slept at abt 2.30 or 3.00

Nurses woke me up at 5.20 to take my blood pressure!!! Far out!!!

Visitors today: Uncle Guru, Aunty Lily, Dad and kor

Thurs 19/6

AM

Blood count results for the day before dropped to 65 000

At around 8, the MO came to do his rounds. Told me if my blood count went up today then he would let me go home tomorrow morning!

Started to get used to the drip

Was able to get quite a lot of reading done today

Slept again after that

Eunice came in the afternoon to bring me lunch

PM

By evening, I couldn’t stand it any longer. I just had to BATHE!!! Hahha… brought the irritating drip along with me to the bathroom. Somehow, I managed to bathe and wash my hair! Ahhhhh…. Bliss….

After that, I started to feel rather depressed. Dunno why…

When Anne came, I straight away cried! HAHAHA…

I guess I really shocked her! (did I, anne???)

After that a whole bunch of people came to visit me.

Thank you so much everyone. It was really encouraging to see all of u =)

That night I was feeling more depressed

But Mom and Dad continued to encourage me and kept pushing me to trust in God

Continued to read my Bible to draw strength from God

Felt really weak that night – spiritually and emotionally

Really wanted to have faith and trust in God that the next day I would be able to go home…

But I didn’t want to get my hopes up as well…

“Oh ye of little faith…”

But I kept praying anyway

Slept well today…

Visitors today: Eunice, Aunty Chris, Aunty Julie Khoo and 2 frens, Uncle Eddy, Aunty Yoke Chan, Anne, Uncle Guru, Uncle Frankie, Aunty Juliet, Philip, Esther, Judith, Dad and kor

Fri 19/6

Nurses woke me up at 5.30 again. Went back to sleep

Woke up at abt 8.30 and the doctor in charge of me was next to me going thru my file. Asked me normal stuff…

I asked him whether I can be discharged today

He said depends on the MO and my blood count

He told me if my blood count goes up today then I might be able to go home

I called Mom and asked her to pray coz I knew the MO would arrive soon to do his rounds. Mom told me not to worry. She said that God told her I’ll be out today

So I prayed really hard as well while waiting for the MO to do his rounds

Finally he reached my bed…

Talked to the housemen a bit…

Then finally he asked me…

“Are you ready to go home?”

And I was like “YES!”

Hahaha…

Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!!

So he told me that he was gonna let me go home but I would need to take another blood test in 1 week’s time

At the moment my blood count was 83 000

So it was rising!

I still had to wait for all the paper work to be done before I could go home

Finally, I reached home at abt 4pm

It felt great to be home!!!

Aaron and Josh came to visit me later that evening

And I was able to go to cell =D

Really wanna thank God for His protection and healing. Thank God that my blood count didn’t drop so low and I didn’t bleed at all.

Really grateful for my Mom and Dad and brother who cared and prayed so hard for me. Love u mommy and daddy and kor! =)

Thanks Josh and Sarah for teman-ing me when I was lonely, depressed and couldn’t sleep. Thank you for helping me get through this… =D

Thank you all for sms-ing, praying and visiting me in the hospital… your presence there has been a great encouragement to me…

Rain n Yvonne… thank you for taking care of me when I was in Cheras…

Am also grateful for really nice nurses who have been helpful and kind throughout my stay there. Also wanna thank Dr. See who was in charge of me while I was there. Thanks for making those blood-drawing moments more manageable! Haha… I don’t want anymore!!! =P

So yea, it wasn’t a horrible experience after all. It was kinda bad while going through it. But, looking back now… God has been there with me… every step of the way… and He saw me through… =)

You are forever in my life

You see me through the seasons

Cover me with your hand

And lead me in your righteousness

And I look to you

And I wait on you

I’ll sing to you, Lord

A hymn of love

For your faithfulness to me

I’m carried in everlasting arms

You’ll never let me go

Through it all…