missing You...

I miss Him a lot. It seems as though it’s been a long time since we’ve spent time together. I’ve tried… I’ve tried to draw closer to Him. But it always seems as though He’s far far away… never answering my calls.

I guess it’s my fault. Correction. I know it’s my fault.

Does He still love me?

Does He remember the promises we made?

Will He reciprocate if I take one step towards Him?

Once in a while, I catch a glimpse of Him…and when I try to reach out for me……nothing…nothing…

I’ve lost my purpose in life, knowing that He’s the only reason I live. Life seems meaningless without Him by my side.

I’ve made up my mind. Life without Him is no life at all…

I’ll keep on persevering… I won’t give up… I’ll keep pressing on… till You finally draw near to me…

So this is it………

I’m taking a step towards You…

And another……

And another………

And another…………

for my dear stella....

Hold On To Me

Hold on to me
Let me comfort you when you hurt
Hold on to me
Let me love you when you hate yourself
Hold on to me
Let me help you through your trials
I am the joy in your smile
I am the tears that you cry
I am in every beat of your heart
Hold on to me.

by Tara Simms

horrible day...

things just turned out bad today... shall not talk about the 1st thing which ruined practically my whole day... anyway, because of that, felt horrible from afternoon onwards. when ate dinner, didn't feel like i've eaten... no mood to do anything....

still, i had to go for Dr. Lim n Dr. P'ng's recital... so went lor... then didn't carry bag. so just held my purse, handphone n keys. reached school, took a new recital attendance sheet coz i forgot to bring mine... filled it up at the music office then went upstairs to the recital hall. after recital, rain, raechen, stella and i went to mcd's for supper. when i reached my front door, i realised i lost my keys. aigh... i think i left it somewhere around the music office while filling up my recital attendance sheet... then, thinkin abt the sheet, i realised that i forgot to collect it back from my lecturer after the recital. arghhh... just so frustrating... this was supposed to be a wonderful day, and it turned out like this... *SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*

transformers

Yesterday Josh and I went to watch Transformers. I liked the show but then…kinda sanfu lar when we were watching. Surprisingly the cinema was packed. Hasn’t Transformers been out for 2 weeks now...? Don’t know why there were so many people there. Yea, because of that we didn’t get good seats!

We sat at Row F, 6^th row from the front!!! And if that wasn’t bad enough, we were sitting right at the side!!! I had to turn my body so that I could watch the screen. If I just looked straight ahead I would only be able to see 1/8 of the whole screen! Haha…cacated… but Josh didn’t mind… he was really into the show. Aigh, I guess it’s really a guy thing right? I never watched the cartoon version of Transformers when I was a kid. Hmmm, really think it’s a guy thing =P but I did enjoy the show apart from the fact that I did fall asleep once. Haha, I was tired and having to turn my body to face the screen properly is a tiring task! Haha… anyway, I did enjoy it…

musical experiences

hmmm, where shall i start... the title of this post is musical experiences. apart from the usual dose of music i get everyday from uni and home, i had 2 extra last week. 1 not too good and 1 better...

let's start with Inti Super Idol. haha, those from Inti, please don't stone me after reading this ok? =P okiessss, last wednesday i went to Inti for their Super Idol finals. josh was part of the top 10. so during the finals on that they, they would sing a duet and a solo song each. the judges were made of some composers or something lar. one of then even been to LA to pursue his studies. they belong to some music school here in cheras. but i don't know what's the name of that school of music. anyway, they really let me down. some of their comments really didn't make sense! i really don't get them... they're already in the music business and some of their comments really have no standard! hahaa... they love those super easy sentimental chinese songs!! hahaha... no standard at all! aighhh.. pengsan... dunno ler whether my expectation too high or they memang cacat. =S i tried seaching for the name of their school of music, but didn't succeed! aighhh.... if i really find hor, i think i'll write in and complain! hahahaha.... evil me....

oklar, don't wanna talk about that day, if not i'll just get even more irritated! hahaha... next up... on saturday night, after aspirers, jon asked josh and i to go to the pub in kemayan club. he said that they didn't have a singer so asked me to go. but i didn't wanna sing. haha, if u do not know, my jazz is kinda cacat!!! hahaha... but i just wanted to check out jon's band so i told josh i wanted to go. when we were there, as usual lar got people smoking. usually i can't stand people smoking in front of me, but surprisingly it was bearable! i guess it was coz the cigarette smell was kinda spread out. not like those when u sit at the mamak stall, a whole cloud of smoke will just be blown into your face. ughhhh, hate that!!! hehehe, ok ok... back to my story. so yea, we were at the pub. jon's band is not bad...! they all seemed so used to it. they didn't have a singer so a couple of the customers sang. and there was this old, thin, malay uncle who was drunk. and every once in a while he would scream... and sometimes he would fill in when someone else was singing! haha... geng wor! =D he was really cute...so skinny but his voice so loud! anyway we sat for about an hour then left. tapau-ed dinner from the mamak stall and went to my place to eat. well, one thing i can say - the uncles singing at the pub on saturday nite were even better singers than some of those at josh's super idol.... haha, i salute those uncles!!! =)

UCSI's School of Music Alumni Concert

On the 7^th and 8^th of July, UCSI’s School of Music hosted their Annual Concert and this year we had the Alumni Concert. Our choir opened the concert with the first 2 pieces of Carmina Burana by Carl Orff. After that was the Grieg’s Piano Concerto by my lecturer, Dr. Lim Pei Sien together with UCSI’s orchestra. Next up was Ho Chee Kin. He’s the overall champion for the New Millennium Harmonica Festival. Oh man, the girls were all crazy about him… hahaha… during rehearsals, you could see them taking out their handphones and recording his performance. And they would eye him and nudge each other whenever he passes by! *faint* I don’t think he’s cute also. Too cina-pek lar! Hehe…

After the intermission, the UCSI Chamber Choir performed followed by Cheong Yew Choong performance of Debussy’s Fireworks and another of Liszt’s pieces. He’s really good! His fingers move across the keyboard effortlessly, it amazes us to see such skill! Aigh… if only I could be 30% of what he is! Haha… Yew Choong is currently pursuing his doctorate in piano performance in West Virginia Uni. He has hearing disabilities due to some viral infection when he was young, I think…. So now, one of his ears is totally deaf and the other 60% deaf… Next up was violin, piano, keyboard and orchestral performance of the Green Tea musical which was composed by the former students of UCSI. The conductor of the orchestra was Isaac Chia.

Our choir closed the concert by performing Music and El Matador. Hehe… the performance of this song on Sunday was superb! Haha.. we were moving around, came down from the choir platforms…and most importantly, we were having an awesome time!!! Hehe, the only thing that I miss about the concert, now that it is over, is El Matador! Hehehe… love love love love love that song!! Hehee, and I could see Adil perform… Haha, so hot!!! =D

On Sunday, mommy, daddy and josh were there… mommy and daddy enjoyed the concert. Josh only liked El Matador! I think the classical stuff put him to sleep! Hahahaa…

but I really enjoyed myself throughout that week. Was able to spend time with my jimuiz…

send in the clowns....

Judi Dench sings Send in the clowns on the Hey! Mr. Producer Gala. Gorgeous version of this remarkable song by Stephen Sondheim - the best I think...



another version and a little bit about the song... i know, i love this song!!

Claude Debussy - Fireworks

something nice... =)

weekend away from home

it's 2 weeks plus and i'm still coughing! well, it is getting better. but i keep getting these "cough attacks" once in a while. especially during Dr. Jeff's lectures! hahaha... hmmm, dunno when ler i'll get better =( very sanfu leh when i get those cough attacks. hafta go out of the lecture hall to cough cough cough non-stop before going back in... aighhh... i've already finished most of the meds Dr. Tan gave me. only thing that's left is the cough mixture. aiyo, how ler... how to fully recover...

this weekend is my 1st weekend away from Seremban. i miss Seremban!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... have to stay back coz our School of Music will be having our annual concert on Saturday n Sunday nite. involved in the choir. we're singing Carmina Burana. the song we hear in a lot of big movie soundtracks. hehe, didn't noe it was called carmina burana oso. if u don't know which song i'm talking about, can click at the left side of this page. hehe, it's there. another song that we're doing is El Matador. it's a Latin song. hahaha awesome song! hehe, u can also listen to it... it's already nice in this recording... so imagine it LIVE!!!! hahahaa awesomeeeeee..... =D

been having rehearsals for the past 2 days from 7 till 11 at night. tonight oso the same. then tmr nite n sunday nite will be the presentation ady. sleepyyyyyy..... wanna sleep... summore this whole week i didn't work. i've only completed 35 hours out of my 65 hours!!! and it's already week 10....? oh man, that's like only 4 weeks left to complete another 30 hrs! siaoooooo.... =( haha, but i don't mind rehearsals coz i've found my new source of entertainment!!!! hahaha... our new contemp lecturer: Mr. Adil. hahaha... aigh, disadvantage is that he's quite short and he's Malay. sighhhhhh.... nvm lar, just see, no touch! kakaka... at least it gets me thru boring and tiresome rehearsals =P

ok lar, i gotta go get ready for tonight's full dress rehearsal... till then....