I'm leaving on a jetplane

This week has been crazy much! Suddenly realized that there’s so much to do before I leave. It’s 2am, Sunday and I’m leaving on Monday at 1.40pm. In the middle of packing and I don’t know what to pack and what not to pack! Hahaha… =)

Finally feeling a bit more excited about this trip. Before this, I had too many things to do and to think about. One thing that I’m really looking forward to in this trip is getting to spend some time with God. He always feels much closer when I’m away from home. And this time I’ll be away for 7 weeks. So yea, am excited about that. It has been awhile since we’ve had time away from the norm and I really hope that we will have an awesome time together!

Nothing much has changed from my last post. Things are just as uncertain as they were before. Some doors have closed, which eliminates some of my worries. So that’s good. Right now, I’m travelling the road which I’ve chosen and I’m still waiting to see where it will lead me to. Waiting to discover my destination is rather scary, but I’m trying my very best to enjoy the journey and to grow as much as I can.

I think it’s safe to say that I love where I am right now. I feel more alive than I’ve been in the past 5 years! And my aim in the next 5 years: to remain in the center of God’s will. Coz I know that is the safest place to be in.

Into Your hands I commit again

All I am for You, Lord

You hold my world in the palm of Your hands

And I am Yours forever

I’ll walk with You wherever You go

Through tears and joy I’ll trust in You

And I will live in all of Your ways

And Your promises forever

Jesus I believe in You

Jesus I belong to You

You’re the reason that I live

The reason that I sing with all I am

Guess who's back...

So many things have been happening that I don’t even know where to start. One moment I’m dreading uni life and the next, I’ve already completed my degree! Now I’m working as music teacher and part-time clerk/receptionist at Klavier Music Centre.

Things have changed so much in my life. I’m happy now. Not that I wasn’t before. But somehow, I’m happy with the way things are right now. Sure, I miss uni, my lecturers and my friends. I miss the freedom I had being away from home! =P But all in all, I love the way things are right now. Being comfortable in my own skin, feeling more confident of myself, loving my job and the people I work with… I am happy!

But just as I’m beginning to get used to the current routine, it’s all gonna change in a week’s time! I’ll be 23, jobless, and on a long holiday in Melbourne! Ahhhh… the emotions and thoughts that are running thru my whole system, they’re just so confusing. I’m gonna miss teaching so much. I love love love love love teaching. My students are smart, bright and so adorable! It has been an honour for me to be able to start off their musical journey with them. My only regret is that I won’t be able to be there with them, to guide them, to learn from them and to watch them grow.

If given a choice, I think I would prefer to let things remain the way they are right now. If you know me, you would know that I don’t like change very much. Plus, there are too many uncertainties involving my future. Too much to explain here, I guess. I know I should trust that God will take care of things. I know He will take care of me! But still, at times it feels like a bus comin towards you at full speed and there’s nothing u can do about it but stare >.<

I guess there is too much to say in just one post. Where I am right now kinda reminds me of the poem by Robert Frost.

THE ROAD NOT TRAVELED

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

Anyways, hopefully I’ll be back again sometime soon. Maybe I’ll have more time during my 2 months holiday in Melbourne! Till then…

Much much love,

aNn